Friday, January 6, 2012

202.0

Record loss to date since starting this in November.  Biggest jump obviously has been since starting hard core on Tuesday.  But, headaches are GONE from the caffeine withdrawal which is the greatest feeling in the world.  I've exercised, eaten right, done all that I said I would and .... I'm exhausted!  I know I should feel elated but this is hard work (it was much easier to put the weight on).  My girlfriend Jenny told me is the bad toxins leaving my body and I will be sluggish for a few more days than I should see improvement, so that is the next thing I am looking forward to.  I have the support of my family and my daughter asks me every night how my day was and then asks, "How are you going to make tomorrow your bitch?"  I know inappropriate language but the sentiment is dead on.  How am I going to own today?  It is a good feeling to know I've accomplished the goals I've set for myself.

The other day I read the post by Maren where she took pictures of herself and posted them.  We are always more critical of ourselves but I think she is absolutely beautiful.  It inspired me to take pictures of myself that very night.  You will notice they are not posted because I do not have the courage to show them to anyone right now and maybe never.  BUT.  It was an eye opener.  I've not seen me that way and it was VERY difficult to look.  I had a hard time coming to work the next day because I was embarrassed by how I look.  I mean I just couldn't believe I actually look like this.  Every time I pass a mirror I just have to say to myself, "this is the last time you will look like this!!"  Frankly, that is what is giving me the motivation right now.  I don't want to look like this anymore.  Each day that I succeed is one day farther from that picture.  I can't wait to look like Christine.  I can't wait until the day I say ... THIS IS IT!


Thanks for your encouragement.  Thanks for your posts.  Thank you for your comments.

He's Hookin, He's Hookin, He's Hookin ....
(I love this Chris ... thanks for posting it!!!)

Loves.

9 comments:

  1. I'm with your friend...the exhaustion will soon dissapate and you will feel totally energized and ready to tackle the world!

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  2. I am glad to read your daughter is so supportative - it helps to have that at home!

    Chris is amazing isn't she :)

    Be proud - you are doing good.

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  3. Fantastic job!
    Also... thank you so much for your kind words about me. It's true that we are our own worst critics and "enemies" in this weight loss journey (and in life). I know the feelings you felt, because I was going through the same. I'm glad you took them though, because on the one side it's good to remember where we have been, and on the other side being able to see that we DON'T want to go back there!

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  4. Keep that positive attitude and enthusiasm - it will take you all the way to your goal weight.

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  5. whoot...your hookin'...um, maybe not. lol. Doesn't sound good out of context. lololol.great job on the loss..200 was a major threshhold for me.
    keep up the good work!

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  6. The headaches from withdrawal are the hardest thing but once they are over it is all great. Well done you.

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  7. Sounds like you have great motivation and are on the right track. I think it's great that you took pictures of yourself to see how far you have come. Thanks for the great comment on my update post. I'll try to update more about my son later in the week.

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