Control has paid off. I can see the movement in the right direction. Ever so small but present. I'm so pleased. Yesterday was a difficult day thinking of the her and the promises made. But my resolve is ever present. I know I can do this because He kept his end of the deal. If nothing else, I will do it for her, which will lead me to do it for me. Complicated. In the past when I tried to make change, I shied away because I knew that if Satan knew my goals he would do everything in his power to challenge me and ultimately fail. But this time, it's not a fear of mine. I know I will be tempted. The difference is this time I am committed and determined and I made a promise not only to myself, but to Him. Breaking this promise has more consequences than breaking my diet - so the determination is there. I would say to Satan bring it on but that's just stupid to tempt fate. What I say instead is Father, please help me.
Speaking of Fathers, Dad is doing okay ... lonely in the big house ... but I so took over making lists for him to do ... Mom you would be proud. Christmas will keep him busy - I pray to find the time to keep both him and my family together.
So, goals for today.
Calories - 1500.
Exercise - 20 minute walk (I played RB yesterday - give me a break!)
No sweets and only this one diet coke.
Argh!!! This is going to be hard - but that challenge is what gives it meaning - right?