My friend Chris (can I call you my friend?? you seem like a friend. Of course we have never met, but I think if we lived in the same town we would be friends!) Anyway, I love that she has declared an end and that no matter what she will accept that end with grace and move on with her life.
I have been doing this for FOUR weeks and as of this mornings weight gain, have lost only 3 pounds. Wait. Let me say that again. As of this morning, I have LOST THREE POUNDS!!! I worked hard for those pounds and I am proud of them. Yep, I made mistakes. Yep, I overate last week. Yep, I made excuses. But gall darn it, in the end, I lost them. I'm not going to go looking for them.
I can't see an end date in sight. This goal may take 1000 days to reach. It may only take 100. But you know what? I am okay with that. What I look forward to is the journey of self discovery. I know I have hidden deep inside me the potential to succeed and I am digging deep to find it. Some days I use a plastic spoon but other days I feel like I am using a back hoe. I use to tell my kids "it's not the final destination that is important, it's the journey." The unexpected detours that sometimes bring the biggest rewards.
In May 2010, for their combined birthday present, I took The Originals ... my four kids - no step dad, step siblings or grand children ... on a Journey to sunny CA where we enjoyed the beach, the Dodgers, Rodeo Drive, and of course, Hollywood.
I love the symbolism of this picture. I know through it all, the Originals will be with me. Even if I am "Bat sh** crazy" as they love to tell me. Well, kiddo's, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree!
And Altso, (yes I know I misspelled it - consider it the new word of the day - Altso - say it a few times - you will start saying it too!) And altso, Journey is big with me and the kids. They know and sing with me at ear piercing decibels with fake microphones in hand all the important songs. I may have altso given them an unhealthy love for Steve Perry. What?! I did mention I was 44 right?
Don't stop believing ... [ in me ].