Friday, November 11, 2011


Yesterday I was so pissed that I gained weight.  This morning, so happy that I had lost some.  All day yesterday I really wanted to just give up and say screw it!  But I pushed through it.  I'm having the same struggle with my end of the bargain.  The farther from day of bargaining it is, the easier to justify not keeping my end of the deal.  So, today, having success after pushing through, was a reminder that, yes, it will pay off to stay strong. My weight loss is not significant.  But it is something.  Something I did through sheer will power.  No pills, no shots, no surgery.  Just old fashioned exercise and constraint of my taste buds.  I am renewed in my determination to keep my word.  Today is a new day.  New challenges, new opportunities for growth, new opportunities to fail.  I would rather grow.  I miss you mom.


  1. Thank you for your comment on my blog. I too am feeling pissy. I have also had days of inexplicable weight gains...and quite frankly it was usually because of the metric ton of salt I applied to my food the night before. Every day we get away from bargaining is indeed a great thing. I'll be reading. So that makes at least two.

  2. I love what you're doing here. It will help you grieve for your mother. I lost a dear friend in August. Her daughter, who lived with her, is having a rough time. She wants to lose 40 lbs for her mother, because her mother wanted it so much.

    You are doing great, but every day it will get more difficult to remember the bargain. I'll be cheering for you.

  3. So sorry for the loss of your mother. Hang in there and keep on fighting!

  4. Time has to take care of some things and the loss of our mother is one of them. Grieving is a separate issue from weight loss and we must try not to let emotions color eating or not eating sensibly. It's hard I know and it sounds like you won that victory for the day. Overeating doesn't solve anything - just adds another stressor in our lives and we have enough already. Take care, press on, and live healthy.

  5. Totally doable. It's all about consistency. A lot lot more losing days and weeks than gaining days and weeks and you see progress.

    I had a hella lot more to lose than you (I began at 299 lbs) and I'm down 121 last weigh-in. By the old-fashioned method of using my brain to strategize, my will to refuse excess food, my will to begin and increase exercise, my consistency with learning about what is best to fuel my body and calm my appetite. We all have to find the best way for us. It's not about huge losses for a short term. It's about consistent losses and new habits and better food and movement choices to KEEP IT OFF.

    If 90 to 95% regain, it's obvious that the long haul is what's key. The long view and new habits. The cliche'd "lifestyle change". Yep.

    You go for it. Believe you can do it...and do it. :D One meal and one day at a time.

    Be well...

  6. Pushing through it is the key. I lost 100 lbs by just eating REAL food, walking and blogging. Don't give up. Now, I am not saying that I have maintained that lost, I am up about 15 lbs. It's a constant fight, but really worth it!

    Hell, if I can do it you can do it. Chin up and weight down!!

  7. Thank you all so much for your support! I can do this ! ?? !!